Be careful what you ask for….

So basically something that I’ve been just thinking about and praying about is discipling and just impacting lives of girls. Never really was something until maybe the end of the year I thought about. Yes we are called to go and make disciples and that was something I wasn’t being obedient or cared to be obedient about. Like I’m still not where I should or need to be how can I lead others you know?

I’ve recently just come to realize that God has allowed me to go through these trials to share with others. I think the fact that I’m trying to deal with things now and to heal is the reason I’m realizing it now. But I know that I’ve gone through this stuff to share with others. Like I said in a post earlier that I’ve decided to help with the junior high students and the desire there was to be able to impact girls lives. Well last night my friend Bekah basically told me about a girl who had recently just went through something traumatic and that I she thought I would be the perfect person for her to talk to because she hasn’t ever had to deal with that before. I got excited and petrified at the same time. Like I wanted this to happen but I didn’t think it was going to happen so soon. Like I’m just scared to actually talk about this stuff. I mean I’m not completely over it myself but I’m in the process you know? How can I help her? Am I ready for this? Just all these feelings have crept in and I just don’t know how to handle it. 

I’m praying that I can be someone she can talk to because lord knows I didn’t have that. I want her to know that none of this is her fault. Ultimately I want to just make sure that she stays focused on Christ throughout all of this.